emily anne.

2009-09-09T23:25:00.000-07:00

woa. whats with ppl these days? you hate me? fine. i cnt do anythng abt it. why wont you show up urself? posted there "lalala" and "guest"? i dont talk damn abt you, so dnt talk abt me. i kutok other ppl who is not my friend and strangers. not you what. dont ask fr trouble la. ape yg tk cukup umur? comon, im still young, want to enjoy, UNDERAGE party, undrstnd whts underage? nk enjoy je per. pe salahnye?. i didnt think im dat pretty, so wht do you care? i nvr thnk myself im good. ok. i dnt ask fr troubles ok. tk menyusah kn korang kan? i dnt undrstnd. i sign up blog, post tag, not for ppl talk bad abt me or read my stories and think im kind of bad person. no. if you got the guts to show up who you are to say me all ths, show up. i wont be hating you or smethng, but i'l rmbr you ok. im nt th kind of th bad person you thnk. did i ever ask fr trouble with you ppl? i dnt thnk so. so what now? still wanna talk abt me? go ahead yeah.if you dnt know who i am, dnt judge me. assalammualaikum.

2009-08-24T08:05:00.000-07:00

Hello. Jst cme bck frm shopping. Haha. I got new newbalance pink and black shoe, bought 2 slippers, lacoste and ripples. Mak i, nice sial. Bought ths ribboned headband fr 7 bucks at diva. Haha. Bought earpist cos smeone spoiled mine. I was searchng fr th hotpink earpist. Bt dnt hve, so no choice, buy red. Hmm. Nxt wk, shopping day again! I wanna go pedicure. Anndd yes people, im chngng my nmbr on th 24 of august. Whch means tmr. Yay. Assalammualaikum.

2009-08-24T00:39:00.001-07:00

Hmm. Idk. Smethng bothering me. C I N T A. Smetimes couples argues bcos of missundrstndng, changes in dat person, smetmes even abt stupid stuffs. Smetmes i dun undrstnd abt my lovelife. Bf always speak out abt trusts, changes in me, my ex, and sme othr stuffs i dun like. Bf likes to talk abt grls, say dat his sch grl friend hotstuff la, and bf go out always look at grls even im wth him. Nt saying dat im jealous lah. Bf says if my face look like caucasion, he love me more, everyday wana see my face. Thn he says he wants my skin to be tan, he says im chubby fat. Like, 'ehh your grlfriend Nt enough pretty? tk cukup kah im ths way:(?' grls spents alot of money on make ups, get hair done, buy new clothes just to impress guys bt thy jst dnt realise. dats wht ive always been thnkng abt. Bf says i went out wth guys lah. Bt, i went out wth guys also got grls wht. Nt like alone alone and ppl thnks we're couples, nooo whaat. Masyaallah. Rather thn bf? Go out wth lots of grls in 1 day, TURN BY TURN! sorry bby, its nt dat i want to gve you a bad name. Im just expressing my feelings here. And i thnk dat, bf always wants to be rght. Everythng rght, bf always blame me, im always been in wrong, i dunno syg. If i cnfront ths to bf, cnfrm, he wont find his faults. He will say im th faulty. I love bf still. Muhammad fadhly bin roslan, ily. Assalam'mualaikum.

2009-08-23T18:51:00.000-07:00

Hey, haha. Im at changi general hsptal nw. Sending my grndfathr to chck his eyes. I skipped sch wth rara today. Haha. Waiting fr th servng numbr to cme out. Walao.

2009-08-23T01:45:00.000-07:00

Heyy readersss. Im in th mrt train nw, otw to paya lebar. Go baazaaar, bt whatt sssaaay! Raining. I hate gg out whn its on rainy days. Haaiyo, so mao fan liao. Met up wth hazyrul and asri. Haha. I got 2 body guards sia. Hahaha. Annd ya, hazyrul and asri and i went walking at bazaar, so we break fast at smewhre behind joo chiat or katong thr. Wa sia, i cnt eat alot. I onlx cn eat 5 spoons aft dat, datsss all. Haha. Aft eating , i fnd my hair masai, so at dat point of tme, we went to city plaza to get my hair done. So hazyrul and asri went bck, i myself alone , aft get my hair done, i perm it fr temporary, bfore doin it, it charges me 15 bucks, so i say ok. Aft everythng done, she say its 12 bucks. Haha. Thn i rushed to paya lebar mrt to meet my mum, aunt, dad, cousins. So we start on our shoppng journey. Hahaha.

2009-08-21T19:46:00.000-07:00

Today fasting. Haha. Walao. Cant meet bf. Bt who says so? Cn meet what for break fasting. Haha. Ya lah, wht lah u emily. Hmm. Just nw in th mrning at 4.30am woke up and eat breakfast rice, egg chli black what i dnno, tahu smbal and ikan masin. Haha. Luckily kenyaang. Hmm. I only drank plain cold water. Aft dat watch tv and text hazyrul and sme othr friends. So i decided to disturb asri and ask hazyrul his numbr, haha. I dunno lah ppl say he likes me. So aft a lng written txt msg, i sleep fr awhle, i woke up, WALAO! 12 msgs sia i recieve. All frm asri. Haha. Okay until here. I'l blog again later. Buhbye people.

2009-08-21T01:39:00.000-07:00

whats with blog right now? cnt upload pics sia. like WTH. lol. okok. farah ask me out to playclub next saturday. she was like, wanna come? i bring amy ameera too if she wanna go. i was like. hmm. okay. right. i'll go. actually if amy nt going also, im gg cos i wanna party bebs. hahaha. meet youuuu up sooooon ayes.theres speech yesterday and im the only one who's talking abt my classmates. i was hahahaha, im talking abt my classmates. and i talk about hw caring, loving and helpful my classmates was. hahaha. and they were like woooooo. and dharnu came up to me says that erra, you're my sweetest friend i ever had. hahaha. and mary said tht aww im sweet. hahah. and afifa was like "FAD! FAD! FAD!" i was like why the hell are you calling my bf's name? " hahaha. so i started my speech. aft ending, i said " 2a, i love you guys." everyone was like. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! hahaahaha. okayy. aft dat mother class. i have another speech about sme craps. aft dat i dewi haz amyrawr farhani fifa patonah and me were talking rubbish abt the speech cos we nvr do at all. hahaha. me and dewi do it last minute. but aftr a long written, i find it all i wrote doesnt referring to wht teacher asked to talk about. so aftr we talking, my malay tcher was like , the face was like "huh?" kind of her stupid ugly face, and you know wht? she did purple and red extensions on her fringe! walao. mrepek siaa. thn she bang the chair. cos we like keep asking her abt the speeech. soo hate her. she like dunn like us sia. if she dnt like she cn say wht. and its so obvious tht she dun really like us. get a life.

okayyy peoooople im gooooing playclub on next saturdaaaaaaay. whoever is going meeettt youuu guyss soooon!

chiao.

2009-08-15T05:20:00.000-07:00

currently im watchin LIAR LIAR. haha. chattin with aqil. i dunno who the hell is dat. just being friendly. haha. hmm. hell, maths CT3 was easy sial. but i nvr study siol. haiyo.
i wnna find friends like:
loves shopping. funny. cn take jokes. fun. sporting. hahaha.
where cn find? haha. my classmates, like my malay friends all cnnot go out. everytime got their own plans. like fck. klua nan kwn tk boley, klua nan jantan smue bole. abe plan plan, paitao org. sial je. i hate dat kind of attitude. hmmm. well, but i cn be undrstndng. in 2 years of friends, i only go out with my sch friends twice PER YEAR. cool kape? tk gerek ah seh. i wnna find moreeeeee mooooooreeeee friends. wanna be my frieeeend? haahaha.

2009-08-15T02:59:00.000-07:00

im feeling bad today. some othr guy texted me, he says he wanna be with me, padehal dier tau aku dah attached sial. he keep saying "when can you be mine dear? are you gonna be mine 1 day syg?" i was like WTH? i told my bf about it. but. he called me cos i ask to. aftr telling him this, he just put down the phone. i was like? huh? so maybe nxt time i wont share it wth him. sometimes i think back, im not a perfect gf and a useless gf. idk. haiyo. maybe i just have to relax.

ah ya. BABES! ive got national day outing pics. but havent yet upload. mls sial. tune in to see aye.

byebyebyebye.

2009-08-03T07:26:00.000-07:00

hey people.
im feeling awkward since this morning. i slept at 12.30 last night and woke up at 5am. feels like i sleep about 15 mins sia. thn my leg cramp sia. today got P.E thn i nvr go fr P.E . haiiyoo. text my bf, 4 hours later thn he replied. aft i texted him for the second time. i feel like he's love is changing, and feel like he doesnt love me much like last time. he's love is not as sweet as last time, he has turned into a new fadhly, im finding for the old fadhly ive known. haaaaaaaaaiyo. luckily thers someone cheer me up. he's a great guy:) thnks. WALAOWEHH. tomrro need to wash teacher's car siaa. hahah. confirm damn fun. but sueh ah. tmr need go buy new nike shoes! yayyy! hmm. i thought of buying OSIRIS OR NEW BALANCE. but thnk NIKE nice ah. next time then OSIRIS then NEW BALANCE. hahha. hmmm.

tmr gooooo shoppping with mommy and daadyy. this week busy. gonna go for manicure on friday with amyrawr and dewi. hahha, thn on sunday we gonna go marina barrage watch fireworks. wuhooo. thn shoppinggg again. this thursday we got audition for teachers day. mao fan lehh. today sign up, thursday audition. like fck. suck balls la. hahah. no time. sooo. wednesday need to train hard aftr sch till we really know the steps well, syahirah and aifa gonna teach us th steps. wuhhhhhoo. thnks. ehhh.. i wnna chck up ion mall at town lah seh. yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

tc people:)

2009-08-01T22:48:00.000-07:00

megan fox.

omg? is'nt she HOT? aiyoo. fcking hot sia she. haha. dammit. i find girls these days look older, bt their age are young. haha. why ehhhhh? hahah. hmm.
i want new tops and bottoms sia. when going shopping again siaaa ..

last night.
i couldnt sleep well last night. i dunnoe what i was thnking about. it spin my head right round right round. hahaha. while cnt sleep, thnking about my bby, i wrote down some notes for him. not too long notes. but quite long ahh. fck, wht am i talkin about? ok nvm. i felt like i was a useless girlfriend ever haddd. awwwwwww. cn someone tell me whts wronG? i bet nobody knoooooows. shiaaaat. im talking shiaaat already now. hmmm.

tata peeoooopleee.

2009-08-01T06:52:00.000-07:00

baby.
im soo sorry. ths few days ive been acting differently towards you. im so sorry.
hmm. sorry guys, ive been inactive at blog. ive been busy for a while. haiyoooo. sooo mao fan liao.
sooo. im having great time in these months and few months back. i took pictures, bt walao mls mau upload lehh. hhahah. i'll update again.

wait.
to my classmates:
walaoweyh. tasha clarrissa, shi hui. dnt laugh at my blogg leeh. i know i hvent blog yet. hahha. bodo:)

2009-08-01T06:47:00.000-07:00

2009-07-28T17:06:00.000-07:00

heeyy.
soooo long nvr blog. haiyo. sooo busy, no com. sueh ah. so mao fan.
sorry peoople. ermmm. i will update later on. tc.

2009-07-04T01:49:00.001-07:00

2009-07-04T01:13:00.000-07:00

omg.
soooo long nvr blogggg.

2009-06-09T03:37:00.000-07:00

yo beautiful:)

gosh! today i gotta get up my fuckin bed at 6.30am. lols. need to send my uncle to airport. he's goin dubai. so. i woke up wash my face everythng so & so. thn we go send him at arnd 7.30am we get loose of th house:) cos his flight is at 9.45am. haha. so aft sending him, aunt & uncle and i went to eat at th canteen. goshhh! ppl lookin at me like WHAT THE F?! some of th police officers like saw me, thn action action stand behind me thn his friend laughin at him. hahah. some got girlfriend alr, still lookin at me. jialat ah. i was goin to th toilet to wash my hands. thn came this caucasion boy ..

caucasion boy: ermm, hey, excuse me lady, sorry for disturbin, cn i get your number? cos i was lookin at you, you were so attractive.

me:errr. what? -_____-

caucasion boy: yaaah?

me:sorry, im attached. gtg. bye.

like gossh. wht the hell? acutally i find him cute. but nooooo lahh. dunwan. i got 1 alr, so stick with 1. hmmm.

soo, i went to my seat, i didnt say anythng to my aunt and uncl. thn dat fuckin caucasion guy keep lookin & lookin. mak mau rembat pa. issssh. emily! tkk la, main main jerr.. haha.
so i ate nasi goreng, i can only eat a little, haha. while eatin, this fcking worker infront of me like lookin lookin while eatin, beside me also lookin lookin. chibye sia. aft eatin, i went to th carpark, mak! ths security guard or police officer or wht dunno, lookin, thn i get in th car, he can still keep lookin! chibye, kao peh ah! hahah. aft dat went to my another uncle house to visit him and gave him souveniers from my aunt and uncle dat just came back from umrah. thn going home alr, my aunt gave me $10. hahahahah. so i say thank you. thn goo back to th car, i go sleep .____. hahaha.
cme bck home alr, i have to fold clothes. aft fold clothes, i sleep again like about 5-6 hours. haahah. confirm tonite i cnnot sleep one. ahah. thn woke up, do chores in th kitchen. thnn fiiiiiniiiiiiiiisssssssssshhhhhhhhh! tadaaaa! -.-

2009-06-08T03:19:00.000-07:00

fadhly.

hmmm. been thnking about you.

-what are you doin now?

-eaten alr?

-hws your day?

-are you bored?

-woke up alr?

hmmm. every minute, seconds, hours & days, i keep thnking about you, i cnt even stop thnking about you. while im

'eatin

'brushing my teeth

'bathing

'doin my stuffs

'talking to anyone

I KEEP THINKING ABOUT YOU. dont you know dat? nw im tellin ya. dont think i don't love you. im in love with you & only you bby. & im tellin th whole world too:) thnks fr bein der fr me whn i need you.

you're my bestfriend, my brother, my lover, part of my family, my bf, my everything. p.s: i love you. rmb dat.

2009-06-08T01:02:00.000-07:00

im watchin th BIGGEST LOSER. omg. haaha. badan bigbig yo. hmmm.

sup doggs?

2009-06-07T05:51:00.000-07:00

sup doggs?

hmm. i woke up at arnd 11+. waah. missin my bby yo. hmm. so i clean up th house. aft cleaning up, i tk sentuh my laptop. so i watch mtv. thn change chaange channels, i watch "beauticians and geeks." hahha. woaah. th nerds and th beautiful ladies pair up dude. like omg. funny freak sia. haha. aft dat show, i watch "the showdown." daddy! damn funny. hahahhah. laughing day oi. hmm. thn fold clothes, thnn finissh. tada. haha. thn lastly watch "night at th museum" halfway cos i watch alr. haha. yay! im getting new adidas hot pink and black shoes & nike hot pink and black shoes. wuhhooo. and im waitin fr mango & cotton on slippers end of this month. wuhhhhhhhhhhho!

sup dog?

2009-06-06T00:38:00.000-07:00

hey. today was th bad day .

hmm, i was supposed to go sentosa today, but thn, woke up at 8.45am alr, siapsiap alr, suddenly my mum say "dont go out." like wht th f? nvr do anythng wrong sia. i get mad, i couldnt txt my friends cos she confiscated my phone. haisxzx. i dunno wht i did wrong. padehal tkde pape sia. ape sia aku buat? i told hr aft i finish my dress up, i'l clean up my stuffs, bt thn she like wht. if my bro nvr clean up his stuffs, he nvr get scoldings. bt if you were in my shoes, you've got nothng to do and get mad. i cried, i get mad. i pack my stuffs, thn my abg sdare called says dat we're going to fetch my aunty & uncle bck frm airport. thn i say, yup, i wnna follow. abruptly when packing, my mom say, dont go out or anywhr else. i feel so upset with my mum. you knw wht i did? aft eating, my parents went out of th house, i quickly take my bag, and take cab go my aunt house. thn we go airport wth my abg sdare fetch thm. aft fetching, we went arnold go eat at pasir ris der. aftr eating, we go bck home and dug out all th stuffs dat bought by my aunt and uncle. hahaha. like lelong.

2009-05-23T22:00:00.000-07:00

2009-05-21T08:19:00.000-07:00

2009-05-20T00:56:00.000-07:00

2009-05-19T04:34:00.000-07:00

haisx.

ive finally realised, my momma has changed. its nt hw she used to be th 'mama' ive known. aft my mum's second engagement, she's totally different. she has changed to b th new 'mama'. she's different towards me. she keeps scolding me, she says somethng bad abt me, she always thnks negative thoughts about me. she's not th one ive ever known. even my future stepfather doesnt talk alot to me. mayb my momma thnks dat i thnk dat she's a stranger to me. th reason i nvr talk to her alot, is bcos im angry with her. she treats unfairly between me and my 2 brothers. i dunno why la. ths is so sickening. ths always happens to me. every year in my life. im always get scolded, even everythng ive done fr them, haisx. why is ths happening? i knw she gave my everythng, bt i thnk she gave me lack of love. i could do nothing else. why? if it isnt my fault, my brother blamed me, she scolded me and didnt even knw who's right or wrong. its so unfair. im so stressed. haixs. mama, why you changed? why you show me lack of love? hiaxs. hope you realise one day mum.

2009-05-18T23:50:00.000-07:00

2009-05-17T22:38:00.000-07:00

today i woke up at around 9 plus. help my beloved aunty bake cupcakes. heeeh.
i knew howto make it, bt my aunty wanna make different flavours.
cheese cupcakes, oreo cheeescake cupcakes & chocolatexzz chip walnut cupcakes.
mmmmmmmmmmm, YUUUUUUUUMY yo! hehe.
thn my aunty finishing th last cupcakes, i turn on my ipod and
sing LOUDLOUD while cleaning up those messsssssx!
haaha. tmoro got kenduuuuuuuuuuuri.

2009-05-17T06:50:00.000-07:00

remember this.

HURT FEELINGS.
In a loving relationship, there are often hurt feelings. We have certain expectations of our partner, and when they do not live up to them we are likely to feel a sense of betrayal. The truth is that if we put our hurt aside for a moment we may realize that our lover was not even aware of the expectations that we had for them. These expectations are probably a carryover of fantasies that we have in our heart of how a perfect lover behaves. It is OK to have these expectations. However, if we expect our partner to fulfill them for us we must at let them know what we would like.

MISSING SOMEONE.
When someone you love has left you there is a feeling of missing a part of yourself. Like one who has had a limb removed, you constantly reach for the phantom lover. You may wish for this uncomfortable feeling to leave you so that you can function properly. However, the truth is that the place in you heart the feels a sense of lacking represents the hole where your relationship goes. It is natural to feel that you miss the person the belongs in you life.

HEARTBROKEN.
When someone you love has left you there is a feeling of missing a part of yourself. Like one who has had a limb removed, you constantly reach for the phantom lover. You may wish for this uncomfortable feeling to leave you so that you can function properly. However, the truth is that the place in you heart the feels a sense of lacking represents the hole where your relationship goes. It is natural to feel that you miss the person the belongs in you life.

FORGIVENESS.
Forgiveness in a relationship of love is essential. We all make mistakes and we must make amends and fix the relationship. There is a certain sadness in breaking the illusion of the perfect relationship. However, for those that pass the hurdle of forgiveness, they will find that their relationship is stronger and more meaningful than ever before. Before the first fight, the relationship is like a fagile egg. Once that illusion is broken the relationship becomes much stornger. You become aware that your relationship can survive a disagreement.

ANGRE.
When we are in love it feels like it will be forever. We put all our trust in the person we are in love with and we share our darkest secrets. When we feel that our beloved has not lived up to our expectations we are left feeling angry and bitter. The feelings of betrayal that ex-lovers feel are some of the strongest feelings of hatred and anger that are expressed in the world. Ex wives and husbands often can not even be in the same room together. Two people that once shared the same bed and most intimate secrets cannot even have a civil conversation.

LONELINESS.
After a breakup, there is a great feeling of loneliness that overcomes us. For so long, we felt that we were a part of something bigger than ourselves. Suddenly we are left with the realization that we no longer have another to lean on. The loneliness is overwhelming. We have become used to having someone with us all the time. We probably made all our decisions together. To suddenly be alone after intense togetherness is a very lonely feeling.

LOST LOVE.
The loss of a lover, whether because they have passed on or for any other reason is a heartbreaking experience. Some never fully recover. There might always be a small place in your heart that holds the pain of this experience. This is natural and fine. Even when you find another person to love, it is OK to hold a place for the lover that has passed. You shared something profound together. The previous relationship that you had is not like your new relationship. Every relationship is unique and should be allowed a place in your heart.

last nite.

2009-05-16T22:42:00.000-07:00

last nite,

i felt smethng different, missing my baby. aft blogging and so on, i switched off my laptop, i turn on my ipod listening to musics. abruptly, ths kind of feeling bothering me. i felt missing everyone, no one msg me. i felt lonely, soo, at about 10.45 till 11 plus, i waited fr him to call me. so i felt bored, i msg my friends. sme replied. sme says they miss me too. hmm. last nite i miss my baby like hell. idk why.

i guess, its time fr me to change fr my baby,

im sorry baby. god willing, i'll change to th old me.

2009-05-16T05:08:00.000-07:00

baby, stop saying yourself

"a pile of dump in th rubbish bin".

i hate yo. dats why lst nite i put down th fone. i dont like you saying

"i ni kan sape".

hate it. hate it. hate it! tsk. i dunwan you to say it nomore.

i love you baby.

I Will Love You Forever.

I love you so deeply, I love you so much,

I love the sound of your voice.

And the way that we touch. I love your warm smile.

And your kind, thoughtful way, The joy that you bring To my life every day.

I love you today.

As I have from the start, And I'll love you forever,

With all of my heart.

2009-05-16T05:00:00.000-07:00

today.

woke up at 10.45am, bathe thn siapsiap go fr wedding ceremony. hmm. rara and i had a tough time choosing outfits fr th wedding ceremony. haha. first, thought of wearing red, thn nvm ah, wear black. haha. ok. rara keep changing clothes. soo, atlast, we found one th best. thn aft siapsiap, we get ready alr, we went out with my bro. thn reached tmpines CC alr. we went der salamsalam my makcik all, tke pictures with my niece and nephews. haha. cute sia they all.

hmm ok end.

2009-05-16T04:54:00.000-07:00

in sch.

2009-05-14T07:40:00.000-07:00

i woke up at 6am in th mrning,

bathe as usual, siapsiap, 6.50 alr. late fr sch! mommy. rmbot masai! thn raining! fck. binget sia. thn i waited fr bus 27, thn raaaaainiinnngg. sch uniform basahh. haha. thn reach frst bus stop at sengkang, waited fr bus 163 fr like .... 25 mins. haha. lambaaat! hmm. fed up sia. thn reach sch, i ran to my classroom, tchr take my attendance, thn start my exam. mary was like calling me ..

mary: erra, erra, erra, hello. hello. heyyy. heeyy. errrrra.
me: *day dreaming.*
mary:hello. errrrrraaa.
dewi: *laughing*
me: *day dreaming*
mary: errrrrrrrrraaa!
me: huh? yea? yes? what?
mary: GOOD LUCK.
me: thnks, eh. thnks pulak, good luck too, sorry.
mary: haha. you always daydream one.
me: hahaha. yaa.

exam started.

when doing my computer application exam, it started at 8.15, so .. i finish it fast, like 15 mins. 8.30, finish alr. im th only one finish first thn i go to sleep. so woke up at 9.15 sharp. haha.

end of exam.

aft dat, i went to the canteen.

mrs freeman: erra, why you always sleep?

me: i dunno lah cher, i tired la.

mrs freeman: everytime i ask you th same question, you gimme th same ans.

me: thn hw to ans your question?

mrs freeman: erra, you look tired and sick. are you okay?

me: im fine, thnks anw.

hahaha. so i ate pizza(mushroom), macaroni(tomato). haha.

thn. my Discipline Master came.

DM: waah, erra, your hair ah.

me:uuhhh? yea?

DM: hw cme your colour bcme brown bck?

me: i dunno lah cher. hahah.

DM:okok. must get it done by today ok.

me: ok.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2009-05-14T06:57:00.000-07:00

If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everydayt o the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine. Knowing that I could never find that feelings with anyone other than you.

A stranger you were once.

Then, with a gentle look you took my hand. As our lives engaged,you lit my life and I held both your hands. Now that decades have passed, ours souls have indeed become one. How fortunate we are that we have found the love so truethat everyone dreams about.

When tender leaves are budding green
and all is new.
remember me.
I'll think of you with heavy heart.
emotion, yet, unseen.
And come the summer's starry night
when roses bloom
and life is sweet in Nature's womb,
I'll wish for you
'till darkness fades to light.
And when the green has turned to gold,
the leaves will fall
as tinted tears,
my soul will call across the miles,
its secret love, untold.
For when the earth is cold and bare
and all is white
with winter's snow,
the fire's light will blaze in eyes
that whisper still ... "I care."

I miss him so much,
my soul's longing can be heard by others.
I hear his name being swept on the breeze.
So much, that the stars don't seem as bright.
Thousands of miles seem uncrossable.
Sleeping is a saint,
A saint because I get to be with him in my dreams.
I miss him so deeply,
I can no longer tell if the sun is shinning.
At night, his presence is so strong in my mind,
I can feel his silk touch.
See his caring eyes looking into mine,
Hear his caressing voice as it whispers in my ear
And taste his mouth, as it kisses mine.
All of this reality only exists in dreams.
In the daytime, I can smell his cologne,
Floating from a distant satin flower.
I imagine his walk as he moves forward to me,
I almost feel his arms around me.
I miss his soft kisses, full of passion.
I long for the way he held my hand, so gently.
I can't help but remember how a simple hug,
Meant so much to him.
I want his sympathetic actions,
I'd give years for his embarrassing phrases,
I'd give a lifetime for his kind thoughts.
I'd do anything just to hold his heart.

i love one and only my baby, Fadhly Bin Roslan.

2009-05-14T05:52:00.000-07:00

my bro.

hhaahha. here it gooooooes. the pictures. hhaha. hmmmmmmmm.

my baby alya aryna! mwuacks.

2009-05-13T00:34:00.000-07:00

heyyy. sup?

hmm.

mommy!

congratulations! hope you live happily with your future husband. hmm. readers, my mum engaged on th 10 may. mothers day. and they going to marry on december. hahaha. heee. i bought my mum cake, with letters.

mama, thnks fr everythng you does and give us, th 3 of us, abg, adek and me. we've grown infront of your eyes, im so fortunate to have a mum like you. i love you mommy. mwuacks.

soooooo, TODAY.
what happen is.

aft my home econs exam, omg. im gonna tell you, its damn hard yo. i do all anyhow. shit. didnt bring my calculator to calculate. haha. thn i leave a blank. aft dat, me, monsta, amyrawr, emiko, farhani all eat at th canteen, thn i went to take bus 27. sooo. i met up with rara, yannn and my abg, go KK hospital. soooo. here i am. at KK hospital! haha. mrepek. im gonna tell you, ive got alooooooot of pictures to upload, bt be paitent ok. i'l make it fast. hahaha. so, feel free to view my blog fr new updates.

later.

babyfad, sorry fr everythng.

2009-05-04T19:27:00.000-07:00

me and dewi went movies aft sch, to watch "jgn tegur". mommy! very dammn scary sia. scarier thn"jgn pandang belakang" and "congkak". me and dewi sit at back, shout shout shout sia. scary gilerrr. isssssshhh. haha. lagi lagi, thn SOUND EFFECT. mak i. punye lah seram. frightening siak. hahaha. soo, aft th movies, we went bck frm ehub to take bus 3.

Bus 3.

now what? i took bus 3, thought its gg bck to tampines, SKALI. it went to punggol. like WTH? ive gotta take bus 34 all the way till reach tampines. it was alr 7.22pm. mak i. lambat siak. thn i thought it'l stop at infront of library, thn it stop othr side! mak. turon lagi, so walk all the to library from masjid al- ghufran. thn meet fad. fad waited fr me like 1 hour 30 mins. awwwww. kesian nyeeer. tsk. so i went, meet him, i say sorrrrry. heee. thn fad sent me all th way home. thnks fad.

byeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2009-04-30T22:50:00.000-07:00

yo.

hmmmm. today, woke up at 5.30am. rara, yan and me woke up and planned to go jogging. haha. thn i get up frm bed, i went outside with yan, we saw yan's dad. so we get bck to slp. at around 6.45am, i woke up again, so i went to bathe. aft i bathe, i went to wake yan and rara up. i ask thm to bathe while and get ready. so aft we all finish bathng, get ready alr, we went out of th house, and go fr a jog. we went into th lift and take pictures, outside lift too. haha. kecohkecoh. thn we went to northpark and start jogging. i only cn jog fr abt 5 rounds. so i stopped. thn i do sit ups, stretch my legs, do sme exercise. haha. nice oi. errm. thn we take pictures. aft jogging at abt 9.14am, we decided to go macs fr awhile.

reached macs alr, i buy premium coffee and share amongs my cousins. so we camwhore in th mrning. so i wanted to meet fad, thn lamelame tk jdi. ape lah. hmm. aft go macs, we walk arnd at afghan. so aft walking, we wanted to go home. walk walk walk .. reach home alr, i go eat my mum's cooking. haha. thn aft eating, me and rara planned to go my aunty kesayangan house. so aft siapsiap, yan wnted to follow, so i let hr follow. thn rara hve to bring big paper bag wth lots of bags inside fr my aunty to borrow fr her "umrah" trip. so we went on a bus, aft dat reach alr, reach alr lah. heeeee.

bye. hahaahha. later on i'l upload sme pictures. paitence. haha.

2009-04-27T23:46:00.000-07:00

HOME ECONOMICS. hahah. i did ths wrongly, but EFFING NICE oi. haha. even if it doesnt look yummy, bt its very tasty, ooooooooooooooooi sedaaaaaaaaaaaap nyer. tidak bisa kata apa apa, sungguh enak dong. heeeeeeee. i was so blur when startin to do it. i just read th ingredients, and mix all up without measuring th grams all. haha. i put all stuffs, but one thng, whn i was finishing, i forget to put brown sugar! fck. i have to mix th brown sugar. thn it taste goooooooooooooood. haha.

2009-04-27T22:26:00.000-07:00

sup?

soo long nvr post blogs. hmm. my days are getting much nt fun now. im so depressed. haiyo. luckily gt friend like ihsan. haha. thnks fr being der whn i need to, thnks fr accompany me when im down. thnks fr guiding me abt life. i'l treasure a friend like you. thnks dude. love ya.

happy 14th birthday in advance iraaBAYBAY.

even we are nt contcting much, i still love you and cherish th moments we spent. enjoy your birthday baaaaby.
happy 14th birthday afifa baby!
hees. enjoy your birthday baby. hmm. wow. da besar ah tu. hahah. loooooove yooo.

fadhly,

im sorry. please dont do this to me. im tired of it. trust me or dont? we always been quarel fr many times through days and nights. please. you said, your promises cme out from your mouth is dat u dunwan us to fade apart, are yu doin thngs dat would make us fade? if yu love me, im sure yu would pick up my calls, bt why yu didnt do so? wht problems are yu hving? yu simply just trust othrs dat othrs dont knw much abt me, yu jst dnt knw who i am. yu yourself dnt trust me, dnt speak out th word love. you're jst nt ready yet. smeone who i trust alot, loved me, bt without trust! why fadhly? why? why you lied to me? why nvr go home? why lie to everyone? tsk. even if we jst know each othr fr 2 months, hvnt yet in a relationship, ive alr knw who you are fad. haisx.
p.s: i love you.

remmbr dat.

2009-04-21T20:16:00.000-07:00

im craving for HOT shoes!

nike pink.Topshop chain pump casual flat. omg HOT.

2009-04-13T23:29:00.000-07:00

hmm. its better scared of seeing god thn see a little creature rght? haha.
im one of god's creations too.

2009-04-10T03:08:00.000-07:00

this sucks. sheeeeeeshaaa.

okay, this is WEIRD. erm. i was smoking sheesha but not a smoker. heee. thn kak mardiana just took my picture and i didnt know how to pose myself. and i jst did a LAME posing. haha.

abg afiq and audi. cute sia.

kak nana and alya. cute sia.

th crazy sweet cousins. yannn, rara, emily.

it was suuuuuuper duuuuper nice!

cute kan kiter? haha.

2009-04-06T00:15:00.000-07:00

hmmm. hey readers.

today's day in school was so like what. hmm. and dewi got her hair done, by rebonding & cutting it. haha. she look innocent. hah, da tk nmpk minah sangt. so, everyone says her hair was nicely done, but ppl like her previous hair better. cos very the curl like gordilocks hair. heeeehee. soooo, her hair looks like mrs goh, bt mrs goh hair abit more longer. thn her hair like abit curled, so i take comb, comb her hair fr her. hahahaha.

soooooo. aft tht got malay lessons. my tcher like soo kerek sia. thn amyrawr was talking, my teacher go throw MARKER at amyrawr's head. kurang ajar kan?! i very angry sia. hate her yo. thn we wasnt talking, she says, "nk bobal, tk cukop bobal per tady?" (in kerek way.)

sometimes she likes to sindehsindeh others. like what sey. ths is soooo not goood.

next time we just buat bodo ape dier ckp suda. lagi best. hahaha.

PEACE YO.

2009-04-06T00:11:00.000-07:00

my sweeeeeet girlfriends.

beautiful gfs.

my cute chubby babygirl, hazlina.

2009-04-05T23:58:00.000-07:00

actually quite cute me. haha.

hoho. FIRST time blogging.

2009-04-05T04:14:00.000-07:00

hey yo peeps. heee. emily anne here. haha. if wnna know my real name, isssssssssss ERRA ZAISHEERA. heeee. dunno why i chose th name emily. like cute like dat. heee. so yea, i decide to have blog cos got nothing to do alr. always at friendster only. friendster is getting bored haaah. hmmm.

MY BELATED BIRTHDAY, 30 MARCH.

my birthday just past. and i enjoys it. quite fun. first, i went to school, thn my friends, dewi & afifa start saying, "happy birthday erra! love ya." thn afifa gave me a present. some kind of earrings and bracelets. hmmm. nice anyways. haha. but, i forgot. at 12 am in the morning, many of my friends sent me a birthday wishes. but der's a SWEET one from FADHLY.

heee. sooo damn sweet. thnks fad. love you.

thn, my i kept quite in class, i didnt tell my classmates tht, tht day was my birthday, so i kept quite and study science. thn my indian friends, one of them was mary, "ehh,. today erra's birthday rght?"

thn she go tell her friends, thn her friends calling me, " erra! happy birthday!" thn they sang me a birthday song, while they were singing, my whole classmates heard, so they sang together for me. SWEET kan? heeee.

thn my kakak, wardah mariah,

she came to me and say happy birthday erra, thn she gave me a wrapped present. i was so astound. haha. thought she dont know my birthday. thnks kak.

hmmmmmm. now what?